your move, my shame, heavens rules , hell's game

Focused on success I must learn to be patient
As I can never let my past blind me with chaos
Making better choices rather than getting faded
Understanding that hard work will always pay off
I feel a certain need to watch the company I keep
Overthinking so much my mind is emotionally drained
Laughing while I suffer I can't let them get to me
I put myself in those positions therefore I take the blame
Guardian angel asking if I will ever learn from my mistakes
While a couple people plot to throw me underneath the bus
Rumors all around yet I don’t understand all the hate
Keeping to myself eventually those mouths will be hushed
 I really have no choice because I must respect your move
Fooling me more than once as a man I will accept my shame
Learning my lessons I must start playing by heavens rules
Getting further in life as I fight for survival in hell's game