Suicide

As the blade opens my flesh and the blood pours out
It makes my mind scream with frustration to shout
The anger that opened this death sentence to me
Is the only thing that I am left to be
So the headache bangs my head to the floor
While I am staring, waiting for someone to open the door
The blood drips from my wrist
I can feel it forming a fist
It stains the dark blue carpet- TO BE REMINDED
While you wish upon a star to be rewinded,
But the blood is a flowing riverbed
And the pain is invading my aching head
Forever away
With nothing left to say
At the end of a sorrow day
When I am the only one to pay

Suddenly I awake, opening my eyes
The pan is so raw that everyone cries.
Just to awaken buried lies,
When all the failure
Was brought upon by failed tries
I want to catch a cat
and burn it flat
Until the blood turns black
and it looks wack!
I want to start a fire
to burn my desire
(of thinking of you
And all the pain you put me through)

Now the blade invades my flesh again, to bleed
Getting drunk and smoking weed.
My black heart
Is apart
You stabbed right through
Just because you wanted to

So the touched turned to ice
And you weren't nice!
But now I am high
Off a ten-story building, I'm gonna fly
The blade didn't work so I am trying something new
Something only a person like me would do.

I am jumping
And falling
Until the pains are crawling
But now there is a light
At the end of a death fight
Shinning so bright
That it feels like a bite...

It's venomous- starting to awaken
Even if you wish to be taken

The sentence was carried out
Now there is nothing to read and write about.

S.A.Bothma