mentally unstable

when someone ask for my hand
i give them my arms
back so sore that i can't get up
people lean on me but i can't do much
so much so that im starting to give up

midnight skies
winter breeze
tear stains
stuck on me

im breaking but no one sees
no one will care about what happens to me
sweet summer skies
cool orange sun
take away the pain
before i give up

scream
yell
accused
downed
frowned upon
i hope i don't go to hell

my mind is breaking
i can't do this
music playing
im so useless
fighting hard
just to get knocked down

i can't do this
i can't continue
i hope everyone can one day what I've been through

three pumps
no heartbeat
four yells
7 screams
alone with me
i cannot see
i cannot scream
but i feel so ugly

wake up
keep going
he has me fighting
let my feet take me where i should be

oh god
sweet heavens
winter embers
less than a minute