empath Liar, i am

 
in many a relationship
be it
platonic or unrequited
i am a fucking liar!

This week of
The 1st of December
Of all who know me
I struggle.

This year I thought I’d not think about
Not feel or near the subject
Or think about……
Fuckin’ didn’t work but not because
I wasn’t trying.

Those who know or feel they have
A private KEY to me,
Called, texted, emailed and PM’d
To make certain I have not left them.

I FUCKIN’ LIED EACH TIME

My most intimate friends knew
And while kept their distance
Kept CLOSE

(thank You)

I understand the white noise – today –
My Daughter needed me.
Fuck me for wanting the white noise to stop!

I asked her to whisper
I asked her to listen
I asked her to Feel
I told her, “I love You”

&

Last night I slept like a fuckin’ dead person!!

(thank You, Charity)