See Me But Dont See Me

Who the fuck are YOU looking at, fat pig.
I see YOU, but the eww you've become.  
Beautiful as the sunrise, majestic as it sets,  
what a woven basket of lies.  
I saw the you, YOU once were,  
reaching for the stars, setting goals and aspirations.    
How the fuck did it get this far?  
So far behind into distance that it blurs your beauty,  
so far  that I cant see, YOU!  
I'm peeling layers and layers of self doubt, lowered self esteem, sadness, anxiety, self hatred, self disappointment, self, self, self....  
Fuck I'm tired, I give up,  
That's YOU fat pig, that's you.