Finally Free

Finally Free

The darkness has lifted, a curse now broken,
words I’m glad can now be spoken.
I’ve lost so much along the way.
A heavy price for a single person to pay,
but the sun has finally risen to usher in a new day,
no longer is my life in a constant state of fray.
This is a major win, all will agree.
From the hell of years of depression, I’m finally free.

Being deep, deep in denial, chaos controlled my thoughts.
A slave to darkness allowed my heart to rot.
When I closed my eyes at night all I dreamt of was pain.
Demons controlled the functions of my brain.
I lost everything I knew to be as my life,
Let go of the woman I believed would be my wife.
The main pillar of my strength departed the earth for good,
But instead of eating a bullet like I thought I would,
I pushed back at the illness consuming my mind,
told the fiend that I was taking back my life and would be just fine.
I can now write while smiling with glee,
the years of torment are over and I’m finally free.

It’s taken so long to get to this point I feel bad for not reaching it sooner,
but now looking forward I see a bright future.
I wrote an entire book to rip the darkness out of me.
A book so dark it may never see the light of day, but it’s how it had to be,
in order for me to escape from the hell I was stuck in and expose its horror to myself.
Those writings were from all the pain; these will be more heartfelt.
Chaos has been replaced in my mind with peace.
The turmoil inside me has been released.
My heart once filled with hate has been filled with love.
I hope the two of you are proud of me from up above.
I’m sorry I didn’t reach this point while you guys were still around,
but I’m sure looking down on me now you are supporting a smile and not a frown.
I no longer have an urge from my issues to flee,
from the lies of the fiend I am finally free.

I see your beauty and it invades my soul.
I want to take your hand in mine and go for a long stroll.
Spill our hearts out to each other and connect on a deep level.
I promise you I have only good intentions in mind and I’m not the devil.
I want to wrap my arms around you and love you forever.
I want a life time of happiness, not just some quick pleasure.
I want you to let go of all of your worries.
Share with my all of your life stories,
and create new ones together over the rest of our lives.
One day I want you as my wife.
Let go of the one concern holding you back and you will see,
bonding with me, from all of life’s problems, you will finally be free.