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I'm finally starting a conversation
Despite the voices in my head
I wait
And wait
Till you finally respond
With a half assed sentence

Are you busy?
Am I interrupting?
Do you not want to talk?
Do you not want to talk to me?

I continue
A little deflated
You respond ten minutes later
Another short answer

Am I bugging you?
Should I text back?
Am I reading too much into this?

I say we should hang out sometime
It's been too long
No response
Finally, hours later
You say you are really busy
And work almost everyday
Then the conversation is dead

I should not have asked
Why would you want to hang out with me
I'm so stupid
This is what I get when I try to be social
My anxiety gets the better of me
And then I just feel like shit