meaning

overwhelmed by question marks    
feeling insecure but strangely saved  
within a deeper reliable dark    
feeding my trust to make me brave    
    
though I'm a coward filled with fears    
I can't explain that messed up state    
much too close to painful tears    
but knowing of our happy fate    
   
confusing life - but what is real    
the contradictions make me mad    
splitting up the ways I feel    
but deep inside I'm still relaxed  
knowing we will stay together    
sailing through the changing weather    
towards the sun of coming times    
decades of trusted sense and rhymes