Both ways

People say its good to do the right thing, even when nobody is looking.
I say fuck that.
In plain view, vivid thoughts, and a trial of bullshit. 
When your the judge. 
Tell me how I'm supposed to react?
I put forth my effort. 
Take out my dignity.
Just to be shot down, 
Then sentenced to life in peril
When your still the judge. 
Tell me how I should do things? 
But don't fuckin forget that I already do them right. 
I stay humble and show my respect outta spite.
I give my half 
Searching for the other. 
Try my hardest
Even when deep down, 
You dont give a fuck what I think. 
Tell me how that's fair? 
But you can't if you don't know the meaning.
A revolving cycle of self attaining thoughts. Spoken.
You can say I'm stuck in the shit
Can't feel myself chokin.
But that's what you desire, 
You want me to go and come back around.
You want me wired. 
You want me to be here
You can't say I'm hired when your the one that volunteered.
Me. 
My feelings and the burning inside is only something I wish you could see.