Lost

Some people with never understand how you yearn for them not sexually but instead mentally spiritually eternally. The thought that you can never get on the same page... always so much tension so much bickering so much dismay.... it's like a dark cloud that just lingers but only when you're together. What does it mean to have so much sadness when there should be nothing but happiness there? How do you repair and don't even actually know the root to the issue? So close yet so far away from each other.  It hurts you to your soul to feel that bond molding with someone else... to see it with your own eyes.... to know deep down it's just a matter of time before you're replaced not only in their life but in their heart.... in their mind.... in their soul..... it's really an unbearable feeling....