Me in our world

I have made good from bad
Yet made bad turn into dispair,
Floated dreamed and drifted,
Whilst be honest with myself and aware,
Stumbled over love,
Made many women cum,
Enjoyed the music alone and with,
Also the radio at home just us alone,
With nothing to want or give,
I've followed celebrity tales,
Nature's imperfect trails,
Seen mammals, birds as they've shone,
My heart a millions times undone,
I've prayed to god,
Seen it in dogs,
Ruminated to feel there is a sense of 1.
Seen whole become empty,
Seen 1 none and all
Nothing and plenty
Money to spend,
Pay waited for,
Been worthless and of worth,
Consistently holding open doors,
See,
Manars are free,
But I've been rude,
Spat in face,
My racism temporary,
I philosophise anger a foe,
Been an immigrant myself,
Hating thought of the xenophobe,
Pushed,
Pulled,
Not thought,
Lol'd
And
Lulled,
Befriended, bewitched,
Moved for fully ahead then switched
Done so little and much,
Defined by image, thought and touch,
Learnt how to be and I can teach,
But then it's my life,
So don't copy repeat,
Tell me you story,
I'm here and in need.