To feel clean

Fucking blood everywhere
A little laugh, a little panic
But that's alright
It's not mine after all
Kiss and make up?
Another laugh but no reply
Well I think, I suppose it's difficult
To pale into rigor-mortis
Pockets emptied
Contents barren
Content, barren..
Little kick, little reaction
No bruising at least
That's something god, isn't it?
A natural cycle really.
Well I think, best clean up
Boring process
Wonderful banal yet carnal
Wipe here
Wipe there
Bag up cloths and clothes
Dig a hole
Bit of paraffin
A match
Bonfire cradle
Cover it up
Old dirt, same dirt, soiled soil? Doubtful
Cold thing, probably had a name
Definitely had parents
Might have had siblings
Maybe a pet
It'll be fed, cared for, no issue.
Nail polish lasts well
Neat job at that
Well, I think
Best get some wood
So I get some wood
Dragging dead weight
That's a drag
But it's a nice walk after all
Keeps you fit
On your toes
That nail polish is pretty pretty
Lasts better than the rest
Quick rest
Few animals about
Birds tweeting
Sky blue
Trees green
Could be worse hey?
At the spot
Sit back have a fag
Chainsaw on
minutes pass
Wonder what they'd think?
Those parents it definitely had
Best not to think about it
Can't stand seeing trauma from loss
Anyhow, I think
We make a great team
Indifferent, us.
No reply but that's ok
It's nice, quiet
Little laugh
Scuffing dirt
Heat intense, best be quick
Anyway, things to do
Render what aught to be used
Respectfully ofcourse
Say a prayer
Give thanks
Self sufficiency is the key really
Self reliance
Self protection
Whatever the self is
Seems rather disposable
Plastic almost
Well, better clean up
Boring process
Flesh left to one side
Fat in a bag
Bones in a bag
Get back
Fat in a pan, heat slowly
Pestle and mortar
Grind bone
Little doll who?
China white
Porcelain type
Shame about the nail polish
Fire lit
Hard wood only
Not pine, never pine
Fucking sap
Well, I think
It's a tough one that's for sure
Wonder if it did have a pet..
Poor thing, nevermind
Fat melted
Gather up the ashes
Add rain water
Boil, stir
More lies to concuct
More lye for conduct
Cleaning is a bloody boring process
Whistling away but never boiling over
Well, I think
Got lye, got fat, got dust
Mixes things up a bit
Self sufficiency see, very rewarding
Saponification takes place
Brings use back to it
Just about all it was ever good for
Well, I think.. it's probably true
Throw in some lavender and the dust
Pour into moulds
Let it cool
The cleaning process
Heat some water
Rub myself with soap
Washing away the dirty work
Well, I feel
So much cleaner