I'll Be There

Should I do it?
Should I cross the line I've sworn not to cross?...
It bothers to think of it...
But maybe it should be done...
I've tried to block the thoughts out,
I've tried to block the pain...
But it all comes back to me driving me insane...
Tears swell up in my eyes...
Heart beating as fast as it can in my chest...
My hands start to shake because of the nerves...
I can't take this mess…
The one I love is falling…
And I can’t do anything to stop it…
Only hold him up when the pain really hits…
To wipe his tears away when he starts to cry…
No one ever sees him for who he is… I wonder why…
Seeing him like this… in pain… kills me…
I wish I was numbed to the pain…
So much sadness and anger runs through my veins…
I can’t really see…
My sight is so blurry…
But I’ll keep up a smile for him…
Just for him…
I want him to be happy again…
To laugh and live like no other day…
My love…my heart…
Will regain his strength after hitting the ground….
For I’ll be there… to hold him up when no one is around…