How do you want me to not scream

Why am i screaming at this person i love?we were best friends always fit like a glove.... When love came in maybe we fucked up. You and me could flt in any situation... Made other haters hate our street education. We fought and used to just play...now we wish the other would just walk away.  Thoughts of suicide and dreams all broken... Even smoking crystal meth aint even working its a toy to mask the hurt and makes each punch play me like im landing in the dirt... Fuck you i gave my all time my favorite  thing to you my heart... You tear me up like its something you have in a glass case... Im broken motherfucker cant u fuck off and stop the chase. Im human and cry real tears over you im not whining so fuckin screw you. When i promise something to someone i dont care for liars i do what i say.... Your breaking our rules saying i do love u wont make me stay bc when u get mad youll do it all over again how can you fix this your supposed to be that dude.... We've done nothing all the talks we had all the times you go and do it again make me sad. Your not my fucking dad. So now how do i get pass the time  your breaking me down and lose my self confidence from harsh things said... Your sorry dont fix it its just the same things over and over again.... You just say you love me but its really pretend.... Im looking for anyplace else to go because your breaking my things and tearing my soul. Just let me go.... Im not going to be forgotten ill kill my self today after the person i love guves me the fuck up. Ill be married to death and the spirits of the dead.... Maybe ur hate will help me take the whole bottle of Oxycontin. Im serious now please set me free because with out you i can barely  breath.....