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This is getting old and so am I
How do you tell a person you don't want to be their friend anymore?
I'm a woman who needs all or nothing
I can't have you be a friend 2 out of 365 days
I need you to be what I have been to you.
From young girls to now grown ass women and you still can't get it right.
We take 2 steps forward and then you do some dumb shit.
Do you know how many times I've felt foolish for being so good to you?
I've cried tears over these sorry boys
I don't need you to make me cry too!
Because hurt turns to anger and I will only grow to hate you.
I don't want that and at the same time I don't want to hurt your feelings
But you hurt me all the time
I know you don't do it intentionally but that does not make it better
I guess some people only know how to navigate during fair weather.
You call me your best friend
But if I asked you "when's my birthday?"
You couldn't tell me
You don't know my favorite color
You don't know what makes me smile or
What makes me tick, or what you've took me through
If you did, you wouldn't do the shit that you do.
You said it right I'm YOUR best friend and the best thing to ever happen to you.
I don't consider you a friend of mine
The so called homies you hang with would never be there for you like me.
I don't understand it.
You use me and they run over you.
How the hell does that work?
I won't waste my time figuring it out.
You're the reason I don't trust other women to be an actual friend.
You're the reason I'm scared to get close to anyone
You're the reason I don't like hanging with too many people and I keep my circle small.
I wish you woke up and changed one day. Sadly it won't happen
So all I can hope for is that one day I get the courage to change my number and never hurt myself again trying to prevent your pain.
Truth be told I never want to see you again. I'm not mad
I can't fault you for not having the heart that I have
Life is too short
I'm just at a point where I want just one true friend that actually earns what I have given you for free.
Until then, I'll just keep hoping the day comes when I can gently ease away and end our one sided friendship.
Why do I feel like great hearts always get the short end of the stick? I'm tired and my heart didn't deserve any of this.
Someone tell me why......
I'm a woman who needs all or nothing
I can't have you be a friend 2 out of 365 days
I need you to be what I have been to you.
From young girls to now grown ass women and you still can't get it right.
We take 2 steps forward and then you do some dumb shit.
Do you know how many times I've felt foolish for being so good to you?
I've cried tears over these sorry boys
I don't need you to make me cry too!
Because hurt turns to anger and I will only grow to hate you.
I don't want that and at the same time I don't want to hurt your feelings
But you hurt me all the time
I know you don't do it intentionally but that does not make it better
I guess some people only know how to navigate during fair weather.
You call me your best friend
But if I asked you "when's my birthday?"
You couldn't tell me
You don't know my favorite color
You don't know what makes me smile or
What makes me tick, or what you've took me through
If you did, you wouldn't do the shit that you do.
You said it right I'm YOUR best friend and the best thing to ever happen to you.
I don't consider you a friend of mine
The so called homies you hang with would never be there for you like me.
I don't understand it.
You use me and they run over you.
How the hell does that work?
I won't waste my time figuring it out.
You're the reason I don't trust other women to be an actual friend.
You're the reason I'm scared to get close to anyone
You're the reason I don't like hanging with too many people and I keep my circle small.
I wish you woke up and changed one day. Sadly it won't happen
So all I can hope for is that one day I get the courage to change my number and never hurt myself again trying to prevent your pain.
Truth be told I never want to see you again. I'm not mad
I can't fault you for not having the heart that I have
Life is too short
I'm just at a point where I want just one true friend that actually earns what I have given you for free.
Until then, I'll just keep hoping the day comes when I can gently ease away and end our one sided friendship.
Why do I feel like great hearts always get the short end of the stick? I'm tired and my heart didn't deserve any of this.
Someone tell me why......
Published 23rd Apr 2019
Author's Note
How many of you have had that one person who just cannot be a true friend if their life depended on it?
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28th May 2019 4:52pm
Relatable post. Heartfelt spill. Yes there are people who will never value the things you give them for free.
Thanks for the read and you said it perfectly. "The things you give them for free" and I think that's what makes it so sad. Having a good heart costs nothing but is the hardest thing to come by these days. Don't understand it.
25th Jun 2019 2:53am
