Losing my grip

How do you let the waterfall of emotions just wash off you
I feel scared of what’s to come now I feel so fucking numb
You’ve got my head in a tail spin it’s causing me whiplash
My soul hides away in the dark recesses of me I know it

I trip over myself I know your their but you hide in plain sight
I’ve had a hard life I don’t ask for much just you and me “happy”
I wished all these things a long time ago now I just wish for one
This road that I’m on is very winding there is nothing left of me

I scrape and claw my way through trying to send to you how I feel
I don’t want a fancy car or a huge house or plastic surgery on not me
All I want is you fuck him it’s true I don’t care what happens to him
I know that’s not me I’m just hate coming fucking last now that’s sad

Your always not far from my thoughts it’s clear I’ve never stopped
You do things to me that only you have been able to do wow
Yes of course I loved our sex life what man wouldn’t holly hell
I hope your laying down thinking about me and saying fuck it.