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The sad forever
I sit on the edge of the bed
staring through the end,
which she reminds me of.
She has wasted almost three years
of her life with me.
She reminds me of this
also.
My eyes are tired,
the world is meaningless.
I try and suffocate myself
against the pillow...
it is impossible.
The morning comes
like a clenched fist;
the doors are for slamming
against this futility.
I think of whiskey
and bar fights;
a means of escape.
But, the minutes continue
mocking me from the wall.
Reminding me how endless
it all seems:
This sad forever
which will not last long.
staring through the end,
which she reminds me of.
She has wasted almost three years
of her life with me.
She reminds me of this
also.
My eyes are tired,
the world is meaningless.
I try and suffocate myself
against the pillow...
it is impossible.
The morning comes
like a clenched fist;
the doors are for slamming
against this futility.
I think of whiskey
and bar fights;
a means of escape.
But, the minutes continue
mocking me from the wall.
Reminding me how endless
it all seems:
This sad forever
which will not last long.
Published 17th Nov 2011
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17th Nov 2011 4:54pm
i'm with you on this one... mine was over year and a half. never did that before. and never had a normal guy/girl/dog/kids thing... long for it... wonder if others have it or do they hate being here going through the motions but dead inside. thought i'd get it this time... fuck no. life laughs at me... i can hear that all the time... give and inch to me and then take a mile away. whatever just rambling. i hope its not the sad that doesnt last long but the forever part. i am the Ggod if i have to kill myself eternally or steal heaven i am not staying in this fucking insane wonderland bullshit goings on.. fuck this god damn mess i dont want to be Ggod... life have mercy... leave me
19th Nov 2011 10:18am
I will consider this one as the best till date from your stable for me. When I first started reading you I was not fond of your negative things which you repeatedly highlight in your poems. But then throughout all of them I found optimism. Atleast your are optimistic what you are saying, be it negative and the surity draws me in your works.
19th Nov 2011 4:21pm
it must be one of the few poems which you let your inner self be exposed as it is. your profound self is often hidden between the drunken verse you often write about. not that i don't find pleasure in reading them but i prefer seeing your true self through your poetry.
Anonymous
20th Nov 2011 11:07am
The stuff about "she" reminds me of Bukowski's "confession". An excellent poem, Jamie. The closing lines about the sad forever are unique and in an odd sort of way inspiring. One of your more tender efforts. Just as nihilistic as your meaner, dirtier poems, but imbued with longing and sadness rather than anger. Thanks for the read.
25th Nov 2011 1:47am
Yeah...I'm there in the mode of waking up and wishing I hadn't or at least to not wake up in the same old fucked reality that I'm in. Great poem as always my friend.
