Differentials

And on that same…obviously we don’t fuck with each at all anymore for a variety of reasons. There are more particularities that divide people at this age teaching us that what we use to trip off of; that was nothing compared to now. Seen each other once after 15 years. I contacted her why? I don’t know. We had lunch together; spent the day together. She’s really changed in this here. She doesn’t ride me anymore (time gap is too wide now-she doesn’t remember things as I remember them) probably since her life is now going the way she wants it and she realizes that now; when she hears the horror stories from colleagues. It’s generally the people who question you who are the most suspect. When I saw her all those things flashed right before my face…like this here..”I don't think you're gay” because why? I uh I don’t objectify women like you/ you guys (not all of them but) that mean I’m not gay? “you still don’t have a gf?” uh well no..so because I ii trying to think of a word..because I have put it this way…because I have a more stringent checklist..that means I’m not gay? That really did something to my spirit at the time; I don’t like to fuck with people (not really). You know my manta. Everybody is not gay the same way. Welp…she’s telling my xyz…blowing my mind…sexually she wasn’t tripping quite that bad even in her 20’s ??? let me hurry up and get away from you…not vibrating at the same frequency on any level…its worse now.