What Now?

These pills and this wine
Knows how to stop time
My world turns into peace
Reality no longer matters
Living in two different worlds daily
Praying someone come save me
I’m drowning and I can’t breathe
These tears and painful fears
I want my life back !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Reality is setting in now
My everything’s are gone
I’m so lost
I just want my kids backkkkkkk!!!
This pain it’s something I can’t hide
All the silent cry’s and the silent screams
I just want to blame me
Never again will I think I’m exempt from life
All the storms & many blessings
I pray I will soon learn my lesson.