Christmas 2018

 
The frost crackles and crunches under my feet
As I walk across the grass
And I think it's as close to a white Christmas that there will be
None of the things I remember from my childhood are here this year
No tree in the house with decorations twinkling in the lights
Nobody had dropped by even for a cup of coffee and a conversation
I don't feel anything anymore
No waiting with a keen edged excitement for the day to come
And there isn't a card displayed anywhere that I have seen
It's a sad and lonely time and I feel it in my heart
Oh to be a child again
With that wonder and hope freshened each day
As Christmas came closer
I only wish I could manufacture that kind of excitement
I think my heart is broken
And I wish I felt nothing at all