The fool inside of me

It's like that night never happen
Cheerfull and kindness fills my sorounding when she enters the room. All I could do is smile and act like a fool. I can't no longer bring up that conversation. My insides cry while my eyes shine cold frozen not even the sun could melt them back.

About a week or two has past me by. I stand here docil at times staring into the distance. I no longer think of time no longer turn my head to smile. No more sweets of any kind. No more thoughtfull gestures.

So why are you still here next to me. Asking if I am fine with your hand on my shoulder. Your playfull knee gentely pushing me to the ground. Your voice replays in my head... "I miss hearing your voice."  I am confused. I dont know what you want. I am afraid to ask. My lips are sealed. As I gaze into the distance wishing.