Inside out outside in

Inside my mind I'm inclined to speak the truth
Outside I don't judge and I'm kind of a shy guy
Deep inside my mind I try and hide the suffering
Expressions on my face might tell a different story

Inside I fight with heart and soul and my subconscious
A war is waged in between a rock and a hard place
Can't please everyone not even myself I'm like seriously wtf
A twisted love affair of lies and deceit left me incomplete

I've been taken to hell I've slowly clawed my way back
In the heat of the moment I've watched you trash a place
My cage is not a fun house of mocking the weak
I've paid my dues in full what do you want from me?

I'm no saint I never pretend to be what I am not
You've killed the best part of me I'm fighting to stay alive
You waved the red flag, I ran like a bull at a gate
My mind is tired my soul is weak my humanity took a big blow

You turned as cold as ice you left me in a bloody cold place
I slowly started to drown I could not see a way out
No friends no time left no answers no way out, fucking crazy
I stayed in the twilight zone started to heal slowly and surely