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I'll Never Be the Same
“You have stage 4 cancer”
No words have ever changed me as these
I’ve no longer made long term plans
Now I live day by day, though I’m in remission of this malignancy
For it can return once more again
Like a time-bomb ticking inside of me it can explode instantly
But cancer has caused one positive change
I no longer fret over silly trivial things, I now have different priorities
Money, success and notoriety
Have given way to friends and family
And cancer has caused me to look within
Finding contentment and discovering a new sense of spirituality
Yet, cancer has not completely defined me
But it has caused me to redefine everything around me
I’ll never be the same again
And nothing will be like it use to be
No words have ever changed me as these
I’ve no longer made long term plans
Now I live day by day, though I’m in remission of this malignancy
For it can return once more again
Like a time-bomb ticking inside of me it can explode instantly
But cancer has caused one positive change
I no longer fret over silly trivial things, I now have different priorities
Money, success and notoriety
Have given way to friends and family
And cancer has caused me to look within
Finding contentment and discovering a new sense of spirituality
Yet, cancer has not completely defined me
But it has caused me to redefine everything around me
I’ll never be the same again
And nothing will be like it use to be
Author's Note
My entry for the 'From the Ashes' competition.
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Re. I'll Never Be the Same
24th Oct 2018 3:04am
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24th Oct 2018 3:17am
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24th Oct 2018 3:20am
Re. I'll Never Be the Same
24th Oct 2018 4:34am
My father has prostate cancer (stage one), but the word makes me shudder. I liked how you wrote about it, which shows how strong you are. I wrote a poem directed to cancer, hoping to help my dad. Keep doing what you're doing.
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24th Oct 2018 6:04pm
Re. I'll Never Be the Same
24th Oct 2018 12:39pm
Snugglebuck
dear poet
you made me stop
pause
ponder long
and hard
i thank You sincerely for this
inspiration is a small word this..for this is much much more
on the reflection
of and about life and reality of it
thank You!
dear poet
you made me stop
pause
ponder long
and hard
i thank You sincerely for this
inspiration is a small word this..for this is much much more
on the reflection
of and about life and reality of it
thank You!
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Re. I'll Never Be the Same
24th Oct 2018 5:44pm
yeah, so much truth here. it changes you.
not sure if this is fact or fiction but whatever the case you have done an outstanding job of presenting it from a human perspective vs a clinical viewpoint.
not sure if this is fact or fiction but whatever the case you have done an outstanding job of presenting it from a human perspective vs a clinical viewpoint.
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Yes, it's a fact.
But here's the most unbelievable part that if you end up doubting I wouldn't blame you at all. I had been feeling perfectly healthy, in fact, quite robust. When 6 years ago, on the 4th of July, I came home at about noon, to find my neighbor lady passed out cold in the back stairwell of our condo. A severe alcoholic, this wasn't the first time I had found her in such a state. But because a thunderstorm was coming I thought I'd better take her to her unit.
I threw her over my shoulder and carried her up a short flight of steps, cursing out loud as I made my way up. After depositing her inside her entry way I unexpectedly passed out. I thought I had a heart attack. I took myself to the doctor where I found out that, indeed, it was my heart. But it wasn't a heart attack. Instead, my heart was completely encased in a tumor caused by lymphoma.
The doctors told me that carrying my neighbor over my left shoulder put enough pressure on my heart that it caused me to pass out.
The humorous fact, the cancer was so advanced, had the experience not alerted me to it's presence, in a few weeks it would have been to advanced to treat.
So, as fate would have it; my drunk neighbor saved my life.
Proof, that God does have a mischievous sense of humor.
But here's the most unbelievable part that if you end up doubting I wouldn't blame you at all. I had been feeling perfectly healthy, in fact, quite robust. When 6 years ago, on the 4th of July, I came home at about noon, to find my neighbor lady passed out cold in the back stairwell of our condo. A severe alcoholic, this wasn't the first time I had found her in such a state. But because a thunderstorm was coming I thought I'd better take her to her unit.
I threw her over my shoulder and carried her up a short flight of steps, cursing out loud as I made my way up. After depositing her inside her entry way I unexpectedly passed out. I thought I had a heart attack. I took myself to the doctor where I found out that, indeed, it was my heart. But it wasn't a heart attack. Instead, my heart was completely encased in a tumor caused by lymphoma.
The doctors told me that carrying my neighbor over my left shoulder put enough pressure on my heart that it caused me to pass out.
The humorous fact, the cancer was so advanced, had the experience not alerted me to it's presence, in a few weeks it would have been to advanced to treat.
So, as fate would have it; my drunk neighbor saved my life.
Proof, that God does have a mischievous sense of humor.
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24th Oct 2018 7:05pm
Re. I'll Never Be the Same
24th Oct 2018 6:23pm
Thank you, Snuggles, for sharing you journey...
that takes some courage...
for writing it down makes it all the more real...
Really good write you got there... Awesome... Ely
that takes some courage...
for writing it down makes it all the more real...
Really good write you got there... Awesome... Ely
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24th Oct 2018 7:26pm
Re. I'll Never Be the Same
28th Oct 2018 9:00pm
Hats off! I'm standing in awe, snugglebuck!
This is not only a very impressive poem, moreover I think that the cancer wanted to teach you about the truely important things in life. Now, that you have mastered the lesson, as your poem clearly shows, the cancer has fulfilled its mission. It can disappear again ...
I wish it to come true!
Best wishes!
This is not only a very impressive poem, moreover I think that the cancer wanted to teach you about the truely important things in life. Now, that you have mastered the lesson, as your poem clearly shows, the cancer has fulfilled its mission. It can disappear again ...
I wish it to come true!
Best wishes!
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28th Oct 2018 11:10pm