Damon

in my understanding of time and it's concept
i decided to love you
initially, the idea was to wait until it was mutual
until it was fully safe to be completely vulnerable with you
but we'll all die one day
i might die tomorrow
you might die 30 minutes from now
and my biggest regret would be for you to not know
for you to be oblivious to how much i love you,
how much i would do for you
not out of being naïve, not out of desperation
but utterly out of adoration
you wanted me to do things for me
do what makes me happy
even if it makes you unhappy,
uncomfortable,
dissatisfied
so here i am
with my heart beating calmly
right in my hand
not racing because i'm not frantic
i'm not panicking
because this feeling slid in like a cool breeze
completely natural, ice chills down my spine
i think we've already been in love
maybe in those first instances of "where have you been my entire life"
"where were you hiding"
because i don't think it's that deep
i don't think it should be something that makes you say "oh no"
or something to be feared
i think assuming that love is this fairy tale, mystical, once in a lifetime kind of thing is what causes heart break
i think it's simple
i think it might just be when you and i are lying together as i caress your face
or you just staring into my eyes
or me being content with you sleeping peacefully beside me
what if love is just developing this level of comfort, of trust, of passion?
what if it's just like i care for everyone, but i care for you a little more?
i'm concerned for everyone but you're just a little more of a priority?
at first i thought you were teaching me to love less
but maybe less is more when you're the one i adore
maybe it's all not major
maybe it's not the dramatized thing society makes it out to be
because i believe that love isn't pain
love isn't stress or obsession or undivided attention
i think it's as simple as breathing, as simple as relaxing after a long day
so after this realization
i want you to know that i didn't actually decide to love you
it happened gradually
it happened one day, i don't know when, or what time, or in what instant
but it's an honest love
and i want you to know it's unconditional
but most importantly, it's yours here to claim