Unstability of the Dancing Illusions (Re-sub)

 “Medication that they give me does not work
My muscles twitch and my body still hurt,
 “Unstable illusions dance always across my sight
Check please! Because a fool like me ain’t right,

 “‘Nerves constantly shot like a motherfucker
Having me send letters to mama saying I love her,
 “But she refuses to respond, treating me like dried piss
So she can suck on my ass and choke on the shit,

  “Even at my highest point-I still feel at basement bottom
Just like a suicide bomber the police know they have to stop em’,
 “Showing the non-believers that I’m mentally lost
Not caring about laws I really don’t give a fuck about,

 “Diabolical delusions make me cause my own contusions
Now at this point any help I’m refusing,
 “Fucking with me is summoning a shitstorm of hell
Truly unwanted like bills and junk mail,

“Nobody wants to be near me because of my vulnerability
Somebody give me a gun so I can set myself free,
 “Either to the face or up under the jaw
Or in the mouth where I can blowjob the barrel raw.”