letter to God ii

letter to God ii
feb.2007

i want to hurt you..
i want to make you suffer..
i couldn't hurt you enough..
there's not enough bad i could do..
not enough pain exists..
i want to hurt you so much..
small God..
stop hiding behind curtains..
stop being so imbalanced with me..
crawl down..
let me have my time with the hammer over you..
let me crucify you..
let me hurt you..
not enough bad things exist..
to hurt you as much as i want..
there's nothing painful enough..
nothing would be enough hurt..
to try to regain some balance in what you've laid out here..
sadist begets sadist..
this is rudimentary..
are you limited in your abilities?
your imagination?
you seem deficient..
a bit retarded..
(what's your handicap?)
(is there any hope for you to supercede your shortcomings?)
you're a small God..
your vision is small..
you're not a brave God..
hiding..
jerking me off with false hope..
these are childish antics..
how could you be satisfied with things so basic and be in your position?
i will never comprehend your patience in this..
or your being satified with a game of such small stature..
i hope there is something bigger above and beyond you..
because you disappoint me..
if not..
i will be the first to crawl over you..
rise to some new place..
you are a disappointment and a failure..
your ways are beneath my own..
i never would have guessed..
it shames me to be beneath such a flawed effort..
pussy God..
bitch God..
faggot God..
nigger God..
(i will come for you)..
(i will make you scared)..
(i will disrespect you in everyway that i can)..
(i will hurt you)..