time shifts but i stay still

time drifts and shifts
travelling forwards, never back
every day leaves
adding to the previous days before me
and i wander why everything moves so fast
before my eyes

i seem to spend my life stuck
frozen and static
trauma keeping me on the ground
my wings are not strong enough to move on up
and out into this scary world

time moves and even people
move on in time
some people travel but others stay stuck in the mud

dislodging ones feet feels impossible
people walk past on grass
beautifully and with grace
but i linger stupidly in a very same old place
feet in the mud whilst time drifts like an ocean

moving, moving, moving
why the hell am i always seeing this
feeling the movement of time
whilst i stay frozen like a square ice cube
the four corners of me
pointed cornered and angry
feeling sometimes ugly and full of negativity
time shifts yet i stay still

the contradiction of movement
makes no sense to me
how can time flow on yet i stand still ?
it's like going on a walk
your surroundings show movement
you are walking but it doesn't feel that way
i could walk and walk and walk
but always in the mud i would stay

time is time
constantly moving forwards
nothing standing in it's way
time never stands in the mud
or stops, even for a minute
time is uncontrollable yet controllable
time moves but i stand still in life
and that hurts