the fear is too much

fear is not to be taken likely
so many miles away from a pinch of salt
in my mind i cannot tolerate unease
my nerves are unsettled
by the threat around my eyes
pushing ones way into my skin
unable to relax
because the threat is too close to me

clouds are hovering
different shapes and sizes
i cannot escape
trapped inside a clouded place called fear
a trapped hell
rumbles make noises within my sensitive ears
cracks and pointed points
take me away from the circle of peace

my safe safety shell has been eroded
i cannot see a damn thing
because all that lies around my eyes
is heavy dust and cracks of lightening
which may well split me in two

there is no safety up here in the clouds
when i'm scared and blue threats surround me
i cannot plant my feet firmly on the ground
so up in the air, the weather is taunting me
my insides splinter
a fast anxious heart and weak wobbly legs
a am unable to stand still
swaying around on invisible thin air

the threatening thunder pulls me in two
i lose connection from myself
too much for my tiny fragile body and mind
the thunder and clouds have control over me
and outer events disentangle my mind
i've lost the ability to think straight
i am lost, petrified
floating in the midst of turmoil

shrinking to the size of a pea
i'm a timid shaking little mouse
flinching in a pointed corner
because i cannot control
the fright around my eyes