Escaped death part 2

To be alive
Breathing and now wanting to survive
The life I have missed
Stress, anxiety and habits I did not resist

Depression nearly sucked me dry
I was so ready to go until I was about to die
The future will eventually become the present
Not long ago it was a time I did resent

There is so much to living
Beyond just doing, caring and giving
I'm so happy to be here
I was blind as the end could have been near

Praying for life is all I could do
Realizing the meaning of it is all very new
No one is perfect and we all make mistakes
I have been given life again, as my body again wakes

There are some things I won't do again
Energy drinks, over work myself and stress times ten
A new chapter of life that will count more
I have learned there is so much to live for

Weight lifting may have to be dropped
Drinking habits have already stopped
Recovery may take a long time
When did caring for myself become a crime?