Marital rape and murder

I married my college friend 6 years ago.
Everything was fine for first half of married life.
But then hectic daily routine and monotonous intimacy dried up our relation.

I had higher sex drive and she had bigger ego.
How long can an apple live with a sharp knife?
I have been using my left hand
For self-pleasure using porn stars and my imagination.

Thoughts of divorce could have come and go.
But false violence charge was a weapon for my wife.
A fake allegation is good enough to land
Me in jail for months that can be settled only by financial reparation.

She could have used feminist victimhood logo.
All these negative speculations ran rife.
But retrospective analysis is useless when I am on remand
For killing and raping my wife under sexual frustration.