One for Me, Two for Her

Many years ago,
I saw it;
Something nobody
Ever
Should have to see:
The light fading from a
Human beings eyes;
And in those moments,
I gave them their first kiss
Because her death was a suicide
And I will not let her go
To her next life as unhappy
As when she left this one.
I gazed the life out of her eyes,
Watched the breath leave her,
Felt her grip loosen on my shirt,
Lost the friend I once loved so dearly,
And cursed God in her name.

I once saw
The light fading from my best friend's eyes.
Coincidentally,
The light faded from my eyes as well
That day.
She was gone.
I stood.
I took a decisive step towards
The crimson-stained bathroom floor,
Picked up the razor,
De-engineered it,
Carefully splitting all the pieces,
So as not to leave a mess,
And,
Taking a single blade off the razor,
I made the straightest line
I had ever drawn
Down my skin.
I could not live without her.
Nobody was there to see
The light fading from my eyes.
The world grew three shades darker
That day.
One for me,
Two for her.