Your Move...

The past will never be forgotten; we fought, taught, and cried in what we called a blessing. If it was a lesson that I was destined then why can't you tell me face to face so I can see/feel your once felt pain and frustrations. I never wanted to bring harm, in those times to me we were going to go far. I had gut feelings and I should of listened to them then because all I can think is what I can do now. I know I know you would say don't do a thing but it's something that bothers me.

Love is selfish and I admit I've been just that. You call me a dove but back then I feel as though I was a bat, dark and mystic. Yea something like that. And I do soar the skies but I only plan to do right. When you looked into my eyes did you see a monster with a hidden agenda inside?? Some things don't change but who I was before is not the same. I no longer wish nor do I pray that your heart and mines come together as one someday. I feel God works in mysterious ways and if one day it happens then hey. What more can I say?

I learned that Love also seeks to understand: "Oh how blessed is the man who finds wisdom, and the man who gains understanding." (Proverbs 3:13)
I ask that you continue to let me seek and understand your mind. I was wrong before for trying to change you. I can't play God and rearrange you no matter how much I may have wanted to. We both had to grow, that I know. If you don't want to speak to me again that sure is a hard pill to swallow but it's up to you.

I know you moved on and it seems I'm still finding it hard to move along but thats not what it is, not at all.

Yes I do miss you.
Yes I do love you.

For all the right reasons; no matter what you do I will always be here for you genuinely. I can't go back and change anything even if I wanted to. I only look forward and on this road mysteriously here you are, I've walked right into you.

In life people who are meant to teach you a lesson come and go with no means of reappearing nor interfering. But then there's some people who come back around with either good intentions or bad. In a world full of hate and things that are not so bliss there's decisions, choices, and options; all one in the same. I've made my choice and here I stand. Not much taller but wiser with honesty and truth.

In the end it's all up to you. Now what are you going to do? It's your move.