Bleed

I sit and wait but no one comes
I gaze in every direction but no shadows are ascending
The endless moving clouds cover the sun
to hide the happiness it brings
but what is there to be happy about?
Everything I loved, descended like a leaf from a tree
it was never allowed to come back

Listening to the same song each day
minute by minute it burns into my head
"Im frozen with this fear
that you may disappear
before i given you the truth."
This fear crawls over my body
feels like im in the snow storm in Antarctica
Im just the frozen pole that's stuck in the ground

As im writing this poem
Im dying here
my body's destroying itself just to be warm
It may be simple to leave when I should of
but I'm laying in front of your door\
waiting for you to come out
and love me like you once did

Im tired of waiting
I'm tired of dying from the inside
I grab the scissors next to the plant of bright. yellow daisies
Stab into my chest
Cutting open the black usless skin
Grabbing my heart and gasp to breathe
I cut the cord keeping my alive
and place it on this paper.
I bleed my heart just for you