Goodbye place

Nostalgic
Coming to feed my spirit, to get closer with Heaven
Why am I in a place like this?
Surrounded by so many people
In a world of extroverts
I am intimidated, underappreciated
People hanging around in big groups to smaller chit chats
Already bored
Mindless conversations, using short abbreviations
Never really understanding my situation
I was not heard, not listened to, just hanging around for their own satisfaction
Happy that I'm there but me they don't care
Would it have made a difference if I had joined a new group?
Doubt it
Manipulated by leaders love
Telling me I should join the conference
They said everything in confidence
I always wondered if all what was said was true
For me personally ' a life changing experience you don't want to miss'
As I ponder that.....
Invitations to come to fortnightly meetings
Time and time again
It was nice, it was fun
But was I really enjoying myself?
I just wanted a stable network
People who I could count on
Vent to without hesitation
But found myself in the same situation
Where I simply couldn't be around these people
They don't fit in my bubble and I don't fit in theirs
Not gonna try, don't care anymore.
Goodbye