My insanity

The pain in my brain it’s a stain on my humanity
Stripped of the sensation of sanity
I’m not a simple motherfucker too full of vanity
The world is crumbling down a menagerie
I can’t form the sentences on my own, gotta power through this curse
My head wants me to abandon everything and fall victim
I can’t allow this shit to take advantage of me
Gotta stay strong against the odds
But oh do I wish to banish this sensation
This spiraling purgatory in my head
A raging forest fire of the mind
It spatters uncontrollably not subdued by pills
Nor watter, vitamins and a healthy diet
Fed by pain and frustration, it excretes them as insanity.
Why am I like this? How do I shut this down.
I want myself back, I don’t want this neanderthal unable to complete his thoughts
This unoriginal hack without an ounce of creativity
I despise this asshole
I miss Ryan
I miss myself.