I Thought Of You Today...

I thought of you today...

Not on purpose... I was perfectly happy
with my thoughts of work and paying bills...
and then I got the chills...

As thoughts of... your smile ran through my mind...
It was a slip... like I said I don't think about you all the time.

and then....
I thought about how the promise of love with you...
slipped through my fingers like  mystical  silk
So beautiful... then gone... and I was never really sure
what exactly went wrong....

and it's... just now... right now... that I feel the intensity
Of you being gone....
As my heart broke 2x as I remember how quickly you moved on

Man... I wasn't trying to think of you...
As my focus on the day get's hazy..

 I just want to go home now and
drink a glass of sweet red wine.    

Cause... your loving was... amazing.
Yet...it certainly wasn't meant to be
Cause loving you... was killing me.

In my mind... I run my finger over the wound
You left on my heart...
You ... My sadistic  narcissistic Ex Lover....
I didn't mean to think of you today...

and I ... sure am glad Its Over