I didn't deserve this

I didn't deserve this.
So much work I give.
Dangling my heart upon a string.
Arms open wide.
Love never ending.

I didn't deserve this
Screams and screams
Penetrating my flesh.
Gnawing it's way to bone.
Till nothing but pain is left.

I didn't deserve this.
Waiting for the next cruel words.
To rip away any pride left.
Making each breathe more painful.
Till only screams are left.

I didn't deserve this.
Sharpened blade cutting deep.
Searching for the next gorgeous flow.
Hiding the pain with pain.
Wiping it away hiding the shame.

I didn't deserve this.
Hoping the next line will be too deep.
Agony relieved by a mistake.
Begging the Lord for mercy
Let the razor make a home.