Waters of war

We are all in battleship,  it's sink or swim. Trying to keep my head up but I can't swim
trying to stay above the water so I don't suffocate
It's hard, I'm heavy with all this hate
it's too much weight
I want to be free with flight
but it's hard with too much baggage
I don't want to fight
I'm tired I want to go to bed now
maybe I won't wake up if you're lucky but I won't do it
that's just not me
I guess you're stuck with me
they say addiction's a disease, you act like it's catchy
you're ignorant as fuck
that's how you choose to deal with me you ignore it you're stuck up and pushy just stop using your being a pussy!
I wish you could understand the way I see shit and this life called addiction no one's immune to it