Obsession

Some could not understand,

The love I have for you

When you left me, my world fell apart.

Now that you've returned my heart sings again.

Last night I dreamt of how it used to be,

Dreamt of the those long winter nights, the sea,

The walks in the park, the scents of December,

And the way your eyes always moved me.

Such sweet dreams they were, a lifetime long past,

Those moments left us and the spring went fast,

And then you gave me the news I couldn't bear.

And I knew we had not long for our love to last.

Ultimatums and choices I could not make.

It all happened so fast, the tears rolled down your face.

I promised I would stay strong, but I was weak.

Lillie, I'm sorry.  This was not the life I wished to seek.

I fell apart, and my life stagnated.  I lost my job you know?

Every night was spent wishing tomorrow would not come.

Why couldn't we stay there, safe in those moments?

Your body pressed to mine, two dreamers lost in time.

But the night did come to pass,

And with the morning came the sad.

You're body, motionless, it took all I had,

To pick up that phone and let everyone know.

Now new memories haunt me, the procession,

The open casket and the remaining medicine.

Lillie, I'm sorry. It snowballed until it was obsession.

But the only way to move on was to have your blessing.

And so here we are, but not quite here.

Your blue skin tells me you're not so near.

This was supposed to bring me happiness,

But all I feel is distress.

Lillie, I'm sorry. I'm weak...