Dreams and revelations

Holly water touches me it burns my skin  
Just when  I think my souls clean gotta think again
Often wonder why Im deppresed
Almost manic always stressed  
Breathe deep with a pain in my chest  
Scared from the knife so I contemlate death  
Invision peace as Im put to rest  
Body in a coffin and a pretty white dress
Penny for your thoughts  
Worth a doller when your dead
Momma always wondered why her little girl left
So many questions mascarra a mess
Sorry for your loss were the only words left
As time went by she felt a pain in her chest
The same one her daughter felt and would contemplate death
Sleeping pills and vodka father please put me to rest  
Im commin baby girl and I awoke as she slept
For the first time in a long time I took a deep breathe
Father thank you for my mama Im eternally blessed
Ill remember this dream for all the days we have left