Mistake

   
Only when it's done, then will I feel the remorse    
What world have I come from that urged me down this course?    
   
Goodbye, guilty admission of a malevolent mission    
It's time, you all will listen, truth no longer in remission    
   
You all exist in stark contrast,    
To my home in the dark's cold grasp    
But in the cold I feel the warmth,    
Strength to be bold and set foot forth    
   
In my core,    
It sparks a spreading fire,    
It grants me a deep desire    
Desire of the sickest form    
Know you are diminished, mourned    
In your wake I am reborn    
   
I happily administer    
A lethal dose so sinister    
This cup of blood is filled and stirred    
There is no feeling similar    
Become a life extinguisher    
I can't believe I've finished her    
   
Once the rush is gone, no more fears internalized    
I know I must move on, from the years' eternal lies    
But I can't see beyond what I behold in front of me    
I'm choking on what's left of my bitter reality    
   
Another dose, that's what I chose, I'll end it all right here    
There's no living with all the agony that I let steer    
I'll join her where I can apologise for this mistake    
Then torment her until she realizes what it takes    
To calm the storm inside of me, to tame the beast within    
That's a joke, there's no way out, you'll pay for every sin    
You'll see now that I am an entity born to avenge    
Raised here in this hell of bliss, this sweet and comforting abyss    
Where I feel no pain, because I make you bare it all    
Remember dear, you always feel the high before the fall