Addict

A year and 2 months sober
A year and 2 months alive
A year and 2 months but still Im so thirsty at times

I can taste the sweet fruit in my mouth and that welcoming burn from my throat to my stomach.
As I screw the lid back on that mason jar a smile crosses my face.
My nerves are at peace.
My anxiety disappears
I feel ten feet tall
I Feel euphoric

Screw off the lid again and take a big gulp and that smile is back again.
The buzz hits me hard just a few seconds later.
This is what Ive needed all day.
This is my medicine
This is my disease
But this is what made me lie to everyone I love
This is what made my wife almost walk away from me with my 3 sons...
that poison was my medicine.

1 year and two months Alcohol free but sometimes it plagues me. Some nights I just want a taste

Addiction is hell