Self Hate

Look at me, I've fallen in to a clutch,
Look at me, I've given up,
Look at me, I'm breaking down,
Look at me, I'm snorting now.

Look at me, I'm crying now,
Look at me, I've given up,
Look at me, I've fallen down,
Look at me, I'm spiraling now,

Look at me, I'm desperate now,
Look at me, I've given up,
Look at me, I'm at wits end,
Look at me, I'm shooting up,

Look at me, I'm almost dead,
Look at me, I've given up,
Look at me, I'm in the ground,
Look at me, there is no frown...

This is how i felt during the 8 years that I lost to heroin. It's also how i have started to feel about cocaine...