Martyr

I don't know why I did it
I don't know what came over me
I don't know how many excuses I could make

I. Am. Just. A. Plague.

You know why you did it
You know exactly what came over you
There's no excuse for being a monster

I. Do. Not. Deserve. Love.

She loves me even after this
after I broke her trust
after she finally let me back in

I. Am. A. Fucking. Cheat.

You're killing her
you never deserved her trust
she will never let you in again

I. Can't. Marry. Her. Anymore.

I can die a martyr
I'll use these poisons to kill what's inside of me
Even if it means bleaching out everything I am and everything I will be

I. Ruined. Everything. I. Love.

A martyr is a funny word for a liar and a cheat
hopefully you kill yourself while you're at it
cause you know speaking of bleach...

Go back to how you were. Druggy