Amber 1 (Standing Naked)

Standing naked in front of my mirror,

Shame is all I see. As sad as I seem.

My mind tears away from me in this a horrid dream.

There's nothing inside, no pride. Myself, I despise

Walking in a fitlh encrusted life full of lies.

Broken and bound, whimpers my only sound...your disguarded prize

I need something to hold onto, my path becomes much clearer



Standing naked in front of my mirror,

Remembering everything.   I wear a mask

to cover the truth of my life  How dare you ask

for salvation when you took mine! You tore down everything!

Made me the blame! You held me by a string.

Telling me what to say and putting me on display

Controlling me like a puppet each and everyday

I was your toy and you a child at play

I need something to hold onto,  my path becomes clearer



Standing naked in front of my mirror,

Pealing the mask away, showing the true pain

The dark skies pouring a heavy rain.

Why would you seek me out, your voice calling my name, calling me

why couldn't you just leave me be, but you just had to see

If I could forgive you, for what you did.  Reminding me of my sin

and your sadistic grin.   Dragging the demons from deep within

and reminding me of the stories from each scar on my skin

I need something to hold onto, my path becomes clearer



Standing naked in front of my mirror,

reliving the truth, after denying you exist.

You died that day, the day I cut into my wrist.

Bathed in blood, found myself behind a cell,

trapped in a hell, YOU CREATED!  and nobody I could tell.

And even now, you try to control me, wanting in my head.

Like you did to get into my bed.

I was in love with you, and I was better off dead.

I need something to hold onto, my path becomes clearer


Standing naked in front of my mirror,

tracing the scars on my left arm,  to my neck

where you placed your first peck.

And when I told you no, you said I was a teasing whore

That you should walk out the door.   My heart tore!

So I gave you what you wanted, and you flaunted

me off to all your friends, leaving me haunted.

I use to pray, but you took my faith away.  You just taunted

I need something to hold onto, my path becomes clearer



Standing naked in front of my mirror,

touching my face, you know the place.

Where you first hit me, memories I tried to erase.

My soul drowned in your hate

as I become content with my own fate.

You were all I knew, even if the love wasn't true.

Night after night, week after week you beat me black and blue.

What could I do?  I belonged to you.

I need something to hold onto, my path becomes clearer


Standing naked in front of my mirror,

Disgusted with what I see, as sad as I seem

My mind has torn away from me, trapped in this horrid dream

Nothing left inside, no pride, myself, I despise.

Walking in a filth encrusted life full of lies.

Broken and bound, hearing you whimper will be my prize

Retribution, I hold onto,  My path has become clear