In My Fantasies

I close my eyes again,
Not wanting to wake up to reality.
Not wanting to return to this situation.
I want to keep on dreaming,
But sadly I can't remain asleep.
The first rays of sunlight have started to poke my eyes.
But oh, how I yearn to go back and dream,
To fall back again into a coma of never-ending perfection.
Knowing, deep inside that I can't.
I have to go face the cruel reality,
Of a heart's loss.
Trying not to cry,
Trying to maintain my head help up high.
Hiding the agony as best as I can.
Pushing back the memories,
Ignoring these feelings...
Ignoring everything...
While trying not to miss you too much.
And I know you keep trying to forget,
To leave the memories of us behind.
And it hurts that you keep on fighting it,
while determinedly ignoring the pain in my eyes.
I know I lost you in reality,
But we're still together in my dreams.
Right now my heart may be aching,
But everything's perfect in my fantasies.