Love Fades

Once I was young, wild and naive
Remembering those midsummer eves
Just how easily
My love was made to pour          
         
Jumped through every hoop
Perfected every trick in the book
Placed my skills in groups
Just to go out and explore          
         
First love wore me like a suit
Fashionably dressed in all its absolute
And there was nothing in this world but
you
At it's source          
         
But over time, suspicions grew
Looming fears turned up clues
Altered years of slow abuse
Inadvertently love had been torn          
         
So relationships hung like a valance
Barely held off balance
Never escaping the fatal collapse
Revealing it's ugly decor          
         
Call 911 back
Hello, I'm under attack
Can you send someone fast
My hearts being held against it's will by
force          
         
Kidnapped under treats of harm
I can't afford to buy the farm
Stay calm and don't be alarmed
Close the windows and lock the doors          
         
Aggressively I'm staying out of sight
Remaining docile and nonviolent
Hoping I won't have to fight
Those who'll come to war          
         
But in light of the evidence
I find loves guilty of it's own arrogance
Organizing a resistance
Going against everything it once stood for          
         
It's done bitting it's tongue
It had the right to remain silent all along
But them days are gone
Like those years before          
         
I know it's not reasoning well
Being self judgmental a living hell
Throwing itself inside a fiery cell
Denying itself the love it needs to restore        
         
A conscious beginning to confess
Emotionally a total wreck
Always vigorously seeking less
Because It knows it can't survive having
more          
         
Its tired of feeling vulnerable and meek
Unprotected, defenseless and weak
There's so many things
It just wishes it could ignore          
         
Because every time love comes near
It's paralyzed by the fear
Of stepping in its own puddles of tears
No matter which foot it puts forth          
         
Because broken hearts never go away
The pain only fades
Broken hearts never show their face
They only walk away sore          
         
Hearts, love and feelings
I'm not listening
I'm no longer here dreaming or believing
Tell me what for