Falling Within

down, down
spiraling farther
and farther
out of control

down a hole
where does it lead?
probably to hell
but who knows
'till the bottom is reached

where is the end?
where are the rocks?
where is the light?

I don't know.
I cannot see.
am I truly me?

I need help.
I am fine.

I get a few scrapes
from bouncing off walls,
from hitting unseen objects,
yet those don't bother me

I welcome the pain
a calming sharpness
a way to focus
on something other then
my screwed up brain,

but truly hell would be
a welcome relief
compared to the hell
living within

how can the dark of night
shine like the sun
when compared to the
darkness of my mind?

who needs to read
those horror stories
when the house of terrors
plays inside
my bloody mind?

sanity is fleeing.
insanity has set in.

as I fall,
mentally,
down a hole
out of control
spiraling farther

down, down
where does this hole lead
probably to hell
no longer to heaven
I really don't care
please just let it end

but my mind
is still spiraling
continuously
down, down
forever
down