Double edged sword

It's like a thousand snakes slithering inside you
Like you're rotten to the core
All The regret and remorse
Eat at you
Just like it eats at me
I've stared you in the face lying
Because inside I was dying
Keeping all these secrets from you
But you forgot about me
And All the little things didn't you
All the things I need to thrive
You set your priorities in line
And I feel dead last
It's ok
I'm used to it
I know where to go
Back into the darkness below
Anyway
 I missed her kiss
The ice up my veins
When ever we connect
I regress
depressed but don't fret this
You won't notice a thing
Because to you
I barely exists
This cold has its advantages tho
I can do anything
 I want as long as I'm not caught
I'll just play the game
and get what I want  
Put minimal effort into trying to please you
Play both sides which I've already achieved to
I've planted deep
I gotta be just like you
Forget when I need to
But can't you feel the guilt bleed thru?
Anyway this wouldn't mean shit to you
I've never meant shit to you
So fucking your best friend was easy to do
is that something you knew ?
She got me off faster than you
And round after round I never thought of you
Just finally I'm free , with someone who appreciates me
Right then she got on her knees
And took a huge load in her mouth for me