Happy hollow days.

Please let me celebrate this glorious day. When all of mankind's worries ,are supposed to be washed away.You wake up in wonder land ready to play,eyes sparkling, excited to stay.Heres my holiday ,I wish you could say,open my eyes cold ,afraid . They will take some thing ,no matter how many rules I've obeyed. A piece of your heart,a slice of the mind, bend over ,smile if life wants to dig all up in that behind.  I sit in my corner with my fingers in a cross,this is what I'm supposed to pray ,when dead or lost? From start to date there's never been a plan.No one safe or smart there to hold my hand.My own family left me in the dessert to die,took everything, what a great scam.Christmas monkeys,junkies all the same ,but I never had these feelings ,when I loathed the twitching game.So I sit in my corner wanting the sirens ,and screaming in my head to stop.That little metal jacket can  with one quick pop.Most people say ,i don't have the balls.You should see the bulls eyes ,ive painted all over my walls,p.s. don't forget to deck the halls. Peeping through board cracks,dirt gets in my eye,life is burying slow dead,or alive. I blow the horn ,ring the bell.No one on the graveyard shift comes ,good luck in hell.Sexy sweet death ,the last lover that I might,taste her lips surrender this fight. She promises to seduce me in ways that I never, fuck you all, at least it's real ,all ways forever. I'm sure you hide behind your fine mask,everyone does,I do everyday in a life that never was. Jump under the missle toe get your free kiss, I'm the one balled up in the corner ,waiting life's nasty piss. On with the egg nog ,presents ,holiday cheer. Slush puppy alcoholic pig fuckers, go drown in your beer. Hide in your mask ,smile and say hey?,it could be me on this Christmas way.One of my friends , from the obituary calls to me every single day. 12 25